Glad you made it through that! It's tough in early recovery.
I am 3 months sober and I have a hard time at "parties" and stuff. Especially when drinking is the attraction. I am finding ways to bring happiness into my life. It was pretty boring while I was drinking, and it still is in early recovery. The fun now is exploring my new life and figuring things out. I read, I garden and now, I am getting physically fit!