Hello and welcome! I am so glad to hear you went to see a doctor. I too held onto the "highly functioning" lie. Yes I showed up at all my commitments, work and otherwise, I managed to feed and bathe my children, I kept in touch with friends and family, but like you said, just keeping up with the daily drinking and hangovers and trying to stay alert was too much. I am just barely getting there, but I keep coming back and trying. You can too.