Thanks everyone for the support. I'm feeling somewhat stronger today. This particular event is very difficult to get out of. My father in law passed away 2 months ago and this weekend would have been his birthday so we have got together to remember him. It is important I am present for everybody including myself but there is a lot of emotion, stress and, of course, access to alcohol. I may well head out for a walk later to clear my head.
I have SR in my phone so am also able to keep in touch that way. Thank you all so much for the help and guidance.