Thanks everyone for your kind words. Went to a friends tonight and didn't drink. I feel better but still getting bad flashbacks about my drunken crap. Then I feel like I am all in my head obsessing about myself and I feel bad about that. Vicious cycle!
I'm sorry you are hurting FABL. And to the others, I'm looking forward to being supportive to you too. Day 2 tomorrow, can't wait!!!