Hi Christi,
I too am married to an alcoholic; we have two boys, age 5 and 1. One year ago I was asking the same questions you are today... So, my advice? Go to an Alanon meeting - even it seems awkward and you are nervous/scared/embarressed... What you will eventually learn there is that you CAN live with an alcoholic, as soon as you learn to put YOURSELF first. Discover who you are; what you DESERVE in life... And best of all, learn all about how to "let go". Letting go of all the emotions that bind you, will set you free - it's amazing!
Take care, and keep coming back
Meg