Yes-I've been having to reaffirm my commitment to sobriety quite often recently, too, determined. For me, as I get further away from the physical associations-both cravings and hangovers-it just gets to be a mind game. Philosophical points about abstaining, social implications of long term sobriety. All BS, all AV. The AV still manages to whisper lies about an imaginary third option where I only drink at weddings and a few social occasions. Dee's line about confusing abstinence with control is the reminder I hang my hat upon.
Also, I think coming up on a year has me evaluating how the last year has gone, and what I would like to work on this coming year. It's not always a comfortable place to be in, but it pays dividends!
This morning I am grateful for:
coffee
a chest without racing anxiety
summer!
a clear mind
a job