Hi cow.
I haven't too much to offer.
However. I am the unfortunate owner of some very defective grey matter that alienates me from others and trips me up daily in various ways, all humiliating and defeating. I have a learning disorder. I didn't know until later in life.
I understand feeling alone, being alone, being different from others and the crushing experience of fighting your way through a world that you don't understand and that doesn't understand you. And no light at the end of the tunnel, no clouds parting after the journey.
For what it's worth.
You're not alone.