Day 6.
Just finished up another SMART meeting. Today the focus went towards how to deal with worry / shame, definitely my biggest trigger! It was nice to speak with people who actually feel the same way i did. I so often turn the smallest worry into something so huge i make myself completely ill. Definitely something i need to work on. Overall finding them useful so far, also a great place to pass the time. Ive not come out of one yet wanting a drink in the slightest, more like optomistic and proud of myself for doing it and speaking.
Physically / mentally i am not bad today. I think the new meds are starting to aid my own personal progression. Finally had a decent sleep last night.
If i think back to how bad it was just 5 days ago, it makes me sick
i cant believe i put my family and myself through that torture yet again, but this time was definitely the worst.
Meeting my alcohol support worker tomorrow, wish me luck. I wait in anticipation of the mental health referral my doctor also made.
Checking out for now
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