The first time I turned down a drink, my husband was like, ??? I could hardly keep it from him. So I told him that I'd decided to quit for now, and he said, Well, the thing that worries me is that you've said that before, and you only feel guilty and terrible when you start up again.
That was a depressing thing to hear, although true enough.
But I told him that this time feels different. It does feel different. But I can't convey that to him. I just have to show it with my actions.
I still haven't told my girl friends. I hope they're not too upset and stop calling me. I need my friends right now!
Anyway, I feel for you. xoxox