Dee74

I wasn't sure I had it in me either - after all I'd 'failed' lots of times and gone back to drinking - I feared I was one of those hopeless drunks.

But, at the same time, I *really* wanted change....I went farther than I'd ever gone before to change my life and to focus on recovery.

To stop me freaking out too much I just focused on each day...staying sober forever was inconceivable to me, but staying sober for 24 hours wasn't.

The funny thing was that , after a while I looked back at a growing string of days, and forever started to feel like an achievable goal.

I changed too - you can't help it really - I was facing up to things I used to drink over, and getting through that stuff sober means I grew as a person.

I began to see that, while the old drinking me might have been incapable of comprehending lasting recovery, the new sober me - Dee version 2.0 - was not.

Stick with it Angie - you really can do this, I promise

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