12 weeks sober today. No real bad cravings in a while. I thought about it as I was driving in the car but I let the thought fly on by. I'm worried though because I am afraid I don't have it in me to stay sober forever. Just take it one day at a time. I have wondered when I will have a drink and get nervous about what will finally make me have that first drink. Those are not pleasant thoughts. I want to have about 8 months sobriety when I visit family at the end of the year. If I stay the course, I'll be 282 days sober when I visit family. I'm sorry, just feeling weak minded today but in no danger of drinking at all today. If the temptation gets to be too much, and I'm about to head out to get a drink then I will post here and make a separate thread. Lots of conflicting emotions here but I'm going to fight this thing with everything I have.