I actually got an A++ on a molecular biology test recently, so I feel lucky that my brain cells have not apoptized to a degree where I can't function as a scientist. All the years of drinking and I'm still an A student. Kind of weird considering how many years I've been drinking. It's just so hard to quit because I have severe anger issues. I feel that no matter what I accomplish academically, I'll end up in prison. It's so messed.