15 years ago.
Joke I never lost my humor did I (did actually for a while) but I need to lie down for a bit Haennie.
edit: I'l add to that- I don't get to decide if I can get any help or not. I've been looking for it for so long and things had gotten so bad, particularly when I was enmeshed in alcoholism that if you offered me help, like a dog who has been abused I wouldn't know then if you were trying to help me or to harm me. Anyway, with alcohol out of the picture now I still have my wits about me but only just, at least that's something. My head is exhausted today.