Hi BringingbackB, You're recent post (day 4), is excellent news. You sound very lucid and clearly understand what you are facing. I agree with your last sentence that you are heading in the right direction. Please take this as it is intended and not criticism, but the way you are living your life currently is no way to live a life. And you are soooo young, you have a lot of life left to live. If you can get your psychological conditions figured out through medication and possibly therapy, throw a little sobriety on top of that, and I am confident you will thoroughly enjoy living.