I am dead if I don't get some help
I may as well say this here, it's no secret anyway and you guys know a lot about what my life has really been.
I am dead if I cannot get the help that I have been so desperately seeking for 5,10,15 years. Honestly, I am.
By alcoholism or related problems I guess, though I haven't drank for years. I cannot cope with the stress anymore.
I haven't been able to cope for years. If you read some of my threads I have tried everything, I have done everything in my power and still I have lost everything.
Nobody will hear my plight. I spend every moment of every day just about keeping my sanity together. I have demonstrated huge resilience throughout my life and still it has fallen apart.
I don't have that resilience anymore. I am a wreck. I don't function anymore. I have been desperately seeking help for a very long time. I have been failed badly