Good evening everyone. Will start off by saying i am 61 days alcohol free. The past 2 days have been very ruff. Yesterday i truly didnt think i would make it through the day without giving in to a drink. For so e reason the whole 60 days thing just didnt seem like anything. I ended up very depressed & snapping at everyone around me for no reason. Feeling a little better today but not 100%. I'm confused because i thought i was doing so well & then bam it just hit me. Its like someone else has taken over me. Thankfully i have made many changes in my life & am only surrounded by wonderful supportive loving people. I do not attend AA. I'm not interested as i'm afraid hearing many others talking or seeing otheres depressed might bring me down. I decided to stop drinking 61 days ago because i was binge drinking to cope with life which always lead to larger problems of course! I finally scared myself to this point & loved ones. I knew it was either continue drinking & die or pull myself together & sober up. The last binge drink event took me 1 week to recover from. I never want to feel that way again. I never want to put loved ones through what i've put them through. Well, i'm happy i found this site. Read some inspiring things & hope i keep at this. Thanks for reading my story. So much more of course to add
