Originally Posted by
whiteturtle 
I don't know what to do.
You do too know what to do.
You don't go buy that booze.
You don't take that first drink tonight no matter what.
You sit on your hands for half an hour if you have to.
You think that drink thru to the bitter end, to the worst possible consequences of it, to what led you to SR in the first place.
You post in here every minute if you have to.
You don't take that first drink no matter what.
You go take a long shower or a walk around the block.
You eat a gallon of ice cream.
You play a game of solitaire.
Did I mention that you don't take that first drink no matter what?
You watch a horrible reality show on television.
These feelings will pass. Drinking will not make them better. That first drink might provide a couple of minutes of relief but how much more anger at yourself and depression will it probably add?
You can do this. A thought is just that--it has no power until you put it into action. Keep posting. We're here for you! Wishing you the best...