Hi everyone. I'm new here. I desperately need support. My last drink was on Sunday night, well, Monday morning if I want to be technical. I have been drinking almost every night for just over six years now. Recently it's been 1-2 bottles of wine a night. And last year it was a pint of gin every night with tonic. And before that it was something else. I had nine days sober last October after a health scare, and then I just went right back to drinking. I'm so tired of it all. I'm tired of ruining my health. I'm tired of the guilt. But I don't know how to stop. I've made it through yesterday and today. But it's been awful. I'm sad. I'm angry. I cried tonight after passing by the liquor store without buying anything. I can't imagine doing this night after night after night for the rest of my life.