Originally Posted by
notgonnastoptry 
I hope this is the turning point I need. I'm really scared right now. My stomach is in knots and I wanted to share that it finally happened. So please take care.
Don't hope - make it happen. You are the only one that has the power to make the correct choices, and it sounds like getting into the outpatient program was a good one. Listen to everything they have to say with zero preconceive notions and if they suggest you do something, do it. You'll find something that works for you..but you have to give things a fair chance.
Being scared is expected....even if you set aside the last few days the prospect of not drinking is very scary to an alcoholic. But really the fear is just your addiction talking....sober life is better than the alternative for an addict. And you have the power within you to get there...you just need to acknowledge it, accept help and move forward.