Welcome SamsWantsSober.
Starting day 9 sober today. I feel like I made it over my first "hump" which was 6 days. For me, the danger starts later when I actually start feeling better.
iam2antsy its happened to me too. Awakened in a panic at 3am just hating what I was doing to myself wondering why I keep doing it and wondering if I have some kind of self-destructive purpose in mind.