Discouraged
Well the good news is I have remained sober. Was in the emergency room April 6 on day 3 with super high blood pressure. Scared me. Nonetheless thought I would drink on April 29. I was an idiot. Thought I would be right back in the emergency room 3 weeks after the first withdrawal. How could I be so stupid! Well since then, not a drop-so that is the good news. The bad news is I don't feel well. In fact I have told myself many times, I felt better drinking. I think I may be suffering from PAWS. I say this stands for "protracted alcohol withdrawal" but I have seen other desciptions. I go through shakey breathless symptoms periodically. Also my heart seems to pound or skip beats sometimes. I was given anti anxiety drugs that I take periodically but keep to a minimum. I don't know whether this is on going anxiety or other health issues. Sometimes like when busy at work I feel totally fine. I feel worse at home alone. Geez...I just want to feel better. Any ideas?