So sorry to hear of your Dad passing away Gilmer and also to your friend Finding...sending you a loving hug.
Mysti you are learning all those hugely important and essential parenting skills with your little ones. You are dealing with them on a daily/nightly basis and making it work
As they grow you will learn new skills to deal with them and so yet more rewards will come your way
In my experience sometimes I can't help but go off into orbit with my children and blow a fuse. Sometimes I get it wrong, but I try to recognise what worked and what didn't. It can be a minefield at times that needs skills to find a way through. You can do it and you are doing it
I'm in for another 24....day 11