Good to hear from some old friends on here
I feel like the last year has been a learning experience and I am not going to beat myself up too bad about it. I do have a recovery plan and I feel that it will work if I don't pick up the first one. I know what my triggers are, I have supportive people in my life that know the whole situation now, a renewed faith in myself and truly do know that the most peace I have had in my life is when I was sober for almost 2 1/2 months. SR really helped me the most last time when I felt uneasy, so it's my go to now!