Sending you love sister - I often wonder if medication does anything, or is placebo effect or whatever. From what I can tell it's a normal thought we have. I'm not sure how long you've been on it but ssris can take time. On top of that, it's important for me to work on myself through therapy
I get caught up in the labels- it's especially hard when I'm unemployed -I csn become my labels. I have ptsd, and ptsd related anxiety and depression so it is the reason I have been fired from my jobs, the reason I can't go to a lot of large events with my friends, the reason the 4th of July fire works freaked me out -but I pretended to b normal and enjoy it like everyone else but was secretly waiting to either be shot- or grabbed by someone from behind .
a lot of times I feel like I am just going through the motions, waiting for things to get better day in and day out - I often think - can't it just get better already? Even for a dsy?
You are not alone,
if you have been on your sSri for a while with no improvement talk to your dr.
Feel free to pm me if you want to chit chat
hope things get better