I lay in bed this morning thinking of how little of my 30s and 40s I actually remember. I'm 50 now. That's 20 years of my life I can't get back. I went from mild to moderate to drinking every night and all day on weekends. I didn't lose much on paper but I sure wasn't giving life a shot.
You can quit. It isn't hopeless. I did detox and inpatient treatment to kick start my sobriety. Maybe that would help you. But you have to take action. One day at a time. You can do it.