Thamks, deep down its prob not good idea for me and my young kids I need to be focusing on them as they deal with the break up and missin their dad...... not a man....but hes taking over my thoughts lol hes older and has his own issues as do i but talking with him i feel is healing and i totally never waste any of my precious time thinking of all the negitives ah bought on me. Grrr its hard thanks for my vent xxxxx