Originally Posted by
fini 
Rob,
thinking of you as you approach the contact with your daughter.
and thinking, too, that you are well aware of the difference between attempts to control vs having responsibility towards.
the two times you used "absolute" made me smile, though...one for each of you
i'm glad to hear your access to pain meds is now arranged in your hands.
Fini, thank you for the recognition.
Yes. My daughter and myself are resolute in our positions taken. I do believe her choices are misinformed and irresponsible and entirely entwined with codependent obligations to her immediate "family" as it were.
For the pain management, I just now received a call to meet with the specialist in the morning. I was yesterday offered my dilaudid as a slow time release. The trouble with this option is it doesn't speak to how my pains can suddenly spike or wane with respect to my activities for the day. Timed release reduces my control for such sudden differences, so I would rather take my meds as actually required than simply drug myself into a constant state of pain relief. I chose regular 2mg pills.
It's interesting how for terminal patients they really are less observant of the addictive side effects of whatever drugs are made available.