I couldn't accept it because I did not believe it. I knew I drank too much, but me an alcoholic........no way.
As I entered a program of recovery I was able to gain enough sober time to let my head clear and begin to understand who I truly was. I became willing to a point of allowing myself time to heal. Some how we have to buy ourselves that time, I believe.
Acceptance is indeed the answer and truly seeing ourselves. It's not easy sometimes but a review of 30 + years for me and the evidence stacked up pretty quickly.
Finally I read this - I'd rather walk around sober thinking I was an alcoholic than being drunk daily thinking I was not.
click.........
When you're ready, you'll find a way. The really bad part of becoming ready is will we survive until then.......
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