I like your welcome post Ken. My personal Independence Day was October 14 2012. I could smell booze this holiday and I thought it stunk. My mind did not connect the drunk feeling with the scent. I did not feel like I was missing out . I did not think about being an alcoholic. Very very independent. Maybe I am healing from the trauma I put myself through. Stop living in my past. Who knows. I guess the best word for me was I felt "normal"