Originally Posted by
Dee74 
The difference between that chemically induced spark and real joy is like black and white to technicolour arbor - don't lose hope
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A thousand times - Amen.
The display of Technicolor didn't come for me for some time - in the third year of my sobriety. But, before it, came a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction (both wrapped in peace); that sustained me until the joy set in; there are still times when I do a mental Happy Dance to the tune of sobriety.
It will come, dear Octsobers, in time; my bet is that it will arrive earlier for you; I had literally no support during the first 26 months of my sobriety. SR has helped it ignite that spark.
Never give up; sobriety absolutely rocks.