I'm ready
I've been lurking since May. I want to get out of the insanity. I guess I'm a functional alcoholic-- high level job, wonderful family and friends. I'm always the life of the party.
I've had a lot of issues with pain the last 5 years from SI, hip, foot issues etc. Thats when I would say my issues began. 5 of 7 days a week I drink an entire bottle of wine. My DH doesn't drink hardly at all-- but he's been so understanding. Like I said I'm functional, but many nights I'm zoned out by 8:00.
In the last few months, every waking error is consumed in my head about the psyche / why I am drinking / not drinking on a certain day. I hate it!
My wonderful husband deserves more from me.