hey were strong and wouldn't stop. 2 hours is a long time saying no.
I'm risking appearing unsympathetic here - i'm not - but there's no easy way to do this recovery thing.
Sometimes you really have to look at the longer view, rather than just the immediate one, ER.
I spent my first 30 days wanting a drink to varying degrees...it was tough, but I really wanted change and I believed what I'd been told...I knew things would get better and they did.
I think you need to steel yourself for a little discomfort, or you're not going to get very far?
Maybe another approach rather than simply gritting your teeth could help?
Have you ever read this link?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
I also recommend this one for making a recovery plan tailored to your needs.
https://store.samhsa.gov/shin/conten...0/SMA-3720.pdf
I really believe you can do this ER - if you're prepared to sit with some uncomfortable feelings for a while?
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