Struggling
Hi it's me again - I posted a while back confessing I am still drinking heavily and thanks to having rods put into my neck was popping prescribed tramadol alongside.
I've lost my partner he's had enough. I went and saw a brilliant Dr who happened to be an addiction specialist :-) I begged him to get me off the tramadol but didn't tell him about the booze. I have no idea why, shame I suppose.
He's started me on buponephrine and I've thrown away all my tramadol. He plans to taper me quickly and seems confident. I've stopped drinking, day two now - ive never withdrawn like this before. I'm sweating and my teeth are chattering, and can't get any time off work.
I suppose I should have stopped one thing at a time but I don't want anything else poisoning me. I'm so sick of it destroying my life and my loved ones lives.
I've got to do a talk today I have a really important job - people where looking at me strangely yesterday.
Would you mind checking in on me every so often as im scared but also more positive than I've been for years