I never drank in high school but made up for lost time afterward and drank a lot. I got sober the first time in my thirties and stayed sober for twenty years before starting to drink again at age 57.
I had an unhappy experience in high school too, tho I didn't have the challenge of abuse to add to it. I was not popular at all and tho I don't think I was ugly, I was more like nondescript. Not deserving of a second look.
I used to wear a lot of make up in high school then got rid of it when I got out and never used it again.