Welcome tursiops! So glad you're researching. Like you I didn't feel I fit in with my AA groups I visited. And like you I've wondered if I'm a "true alcoholic." But when I talk to support system, it hits me that even though i was never physically addicted to alcohol, drinking was a problem for me and later, for those around me. I could label it what I want, but the fact is I'm a person who just can never drink again. Because I was also lucky enough that I didnt hit a bottom that involved jail, DUIs, wrecks, divorce, or bankruptcy; but I know that I wasn't far from any number of those things. Problem drinking, binge drinking, alcoholism- it's all so progressive. I'm glad i got out when I did, and I'm so glad you did too!