I wanted it to go away...
I had an extremely stressful and emotional situation come up this morning. I couldn't shake the ugly feelings and my god did I want a beer. I went to the fridge and cracked open a coke instead. I breathed deeply for about 20 minutes, and prayed and it became tolerable. This CAN be done. It was intense but I made it. Thank you friends for all I have learned here so far.
Jennifer