Cauliflower

We went to a bbq at a Hutterite colony! I felt like it should have been the safest place to be on earth. I didn`t even think they drank? They are so religious. I just feel kind of vulnerable, not that I would go out and buy some wine or anything, but just a little shaken this morning that I almost gave in. It was too easy. I guess it's just a wake up call. I am definitely not cured! Wine is my vice, if it was anything else, I wouldn't even bat an eye. At about week one I was ready to say screw it, and have a glass of wine at a dance, but thankfully, the bar didn't stock wine. I hate this feeling of being on edge. I didn't drink, and it almost feels like I am starting from day one. Time to pull out my plan and read everything again. It's just scary that a relapse could happen at anytime. I was just not prepared.