Originally Posted by
dunkelheit 
I never went to AA, or anything.
Maybe you should try AA, or something?
Many of us went to great lengths to support or try to control our drinking. I could never "stock up" on booze because I would just drink it all. Recovery wasn't easy either--I had to check myself into detox then do ninety AA meetings in ninety days. It makes sense to go to great lengths for recovery, because my life depends on it.