hello ...
Hi, I'm a newcomer here. I have almost 10 months sober (next week). Mostly I am loving being sober. It has been a wonderful gift.
I am looking for help on quieting that voice that still sometimes tells me "I'm not an alcoholic" and that I don't have to keep going to AA. I had a very "high bottom" and quit without any outside consequences. While that's a fortunate thing for me, it sometimes makes me confused about whether I'm really an alcoholic. Sometimes I enjoy AA, but I often feel like I don't quite belong and don't relate, as most of the things that people talk about didn't happen to me. I have a sponsor and work the steps, but still I struggle with this.
I know that I want to stay sober, and that entertaining thoughts about whether I was an alcoholic or just a heavy drinker is not productive. Because either way, the best thing for me is not to drink. But the thought comes back anyway ...
Does anyone have experience or insight with this?
Thank you
Louisa