PS
I know some people have posted that you were already planning to drink long before you started posting, and that might me true.
Once, I shared at an AA meeting that I was going to take a trip and I was concerned about drinking. One guy kept insisting that I had already decided to drink. I couldn't figure out where this guy was coming from, because it wasn't true. Just wanted to put it out there. Well, he was wrong and I didn't drink. Was just looking for support. Honesty with self is key. John