Yes I ditto what latte just said.
By surrendering and realizing that you need help.
By not using no matter what.
And by sticking with your recovery program.
Your post reminded me of someone suffering with Bipolar....which like latte mentioned could just be a symptom of your addiction in active stages....or it could be a mental illness that needs addressing? I suggest a trip to the psych doctor to get it checked out....Perhaps your rehab has one on staff?