I found that the combination of quitting drugs, therapy and some sort of program helped a great deal with the compulsive behavior. When I am using my actions are that of someone with BiPolar II. Some days that is all that keeps me clean is not wanting to deal with mental illness.
What changed for me this time was that I knew that I couldn't do it on my own and my way doesn't work. Too bad it took giving away my family to realize that. When I surrendered I became whole again-not right away, but slowly, by doing the work.
I am so glad you are here. SR is a wonderful place with so much experience, strength and hope.