the place im going to is called Corneille estates in ocean beach fire island...just an incredible beautiful place...right on the ocean,,, there are many other things to do there than drink...surf,boogieboard great resturants....nature walks.....I am going to be with my wife and kids...they will be with me all the time nobody in our house will be drinking....friends that will visit are aware of my situation,,,NOBODY WANTS ME TO DRINK...I am reading these posts and taking them with me.......I haven't forgot the hell that I went thru..Like I said before I love my life now....drinking vodka wont do it for me...I keep telling myself that....I know death is in that glass