Hello Exwell,
I am new here and don;t know you, so forgive me stepping in - but you did post asking for advice
Please don't go.
I have been reading SR for an hour or two each day this month. As you know, it is full of people expressing remorse about relapsing again, often falling deeper and taking longer to even try and claw their way back to sobriety again.
It almost sounds as if your AV is typing these posts for you...
Remove the Hazard - Don't Manage the Risk.
Don't go this year.
Go next year - 440 days sober - And every year after that, if you still want to.
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