lycan,
I understand what you're going through. I also have to deal with the social anxiety so the rock and hard place makes sense to me. I like my own company, but everybody needs some level of companionsionship from time to time. I live alone and lucky for me, I feel ok with that. But I do two things that helps. I find things to do on my own. Go to a movie, a ballgame, a festival, etc. I mean what's the point of being sober if you just sit home staring at your tv? Second, I go to AA meetings two or three times a week. I don't talk to people there much other than a hi, but being around people helps a lot. I also go to the gym, usually 5 times a week. Again being around people, occasionally making small talk with someone. Gotta build a life lycan. It's really hard but very important. Of course, I also check in here on SR daily. Make a life plan. Start small and build on it. Hope this helps. John