Hi Hendrix, does this sound familiar or ring a bell?
"My AV doesn't want to sip the beer in the sun or savour a glass of wine at sunset - it wants to get smashed with absolute abandon knowing that there would be the opportunity to drink through the nausea to avoid the hangover the next day".
I don't want that - I'm going to get up early to enjoy the morning, explore the island appreciating its beauty, swim and snorkel in the crystal water, relax in the calm peaceful atmosphere knowing that as long as I recognise what is me and what is AV then I need never return to that hell again.
I hear ya though, I'd certainly have the same thoughts. But you have over 7 month (I believe), give this one a go with no beer. Just enjoy it with a clear head. If its unbearable and you are not ready, fly home. Based on your past threads, it would be a minor sacrifice to retain your sobriety. Correct?