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In retrospect, it would have been nice, but as Trach said, likely never a possibility. But to be able to recognize real problems as my own or not my own and not spin off into literally years of destructive and deluded harm to myself and others on the grounds of problems of my own imagination? To be able to form a goal and pursue it or change it as information was gained instead of always approaching goals from behind like a saboteur or building them up engineered to fall like a demented sapper? To form relationships that weren't based on mutual mistrust and manipulation?

Nah, I don't overrate normal. Learning to live normal --even if it hasn't come naturally -- is aspirational.