All afternoon I've been soul searching, examining my behavior and thinking about how I can do something different starting immediately! The very cool thing is how quickly I can change my life and my health by simply not taking the next drink. It will clear out of my body relatively quickly and I never have to suffer this pain and humiliation again. Ever. So my huge life-changing goal of being a non-drinker is already a reality. Yay.
Forgiving myself.
Thanks to all your lovely comments and support. So thankful you all took the time.