Serenidad, I always try and read a bit on SR before I leave for work everyday and yours was the first one, when I read it, my heart sank, my jaw dropped, I felt hurt (not by you specifically). I can't offer anymore than has already been said, just know that I support you 110%. Of course the first thing to do is get sobered up, but even before that, please try and refrain from feeling "worthless", "empty" "giving up" etc... Try to clear your mind of that dark cloud. You know, and everyone here knows you have some hard work ahead of you. SO MANY people here care immensely about you.