Nothing will eclipse the Sunlight of the Spirit like self-centered fear and self-pity. It's telling everyone that I can't possibly be of any help to you because I'm too busy with my SELF. Ask me how I know THAT little ditty...
Indulge yourself for 20 minutes, then get off the cross--we need the wood:
Sobriety takes action. One minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time. And it takes getting to the end of your 'good ideas.' There is a well worn path to sober living for those who want it. That only leaves one question: Do YOU want it?